Light At The End Of The Tunnel

My current adventure is coming to a close. I now know the exact date that I will be setting my first foot prints in NYC! It is bitter sweet, but I knew right from the start that it would at one point end. I will have been on the road living out of my rucksack for 107 days. When I started the journey back in January my dad asked me how long I thought it would take me. I gave him a estimate of three months, pretty close.
I have had a few in depth talks with my friend Rae, and during some of these talks I have expressed a desire for this current journey to end, get to NYC and get to work on finishing my book. I have one more stop to make before I get there. I have not seen my friend Jazzy J in a few years. She is a true friend and teacher who has helped me progress tremendously. She now lives in Washington D.C., it was set in stone as soon as I decided to make this journey. On Sunday, Rae threw it out that she would is ready for a road trip and would love to drive me to D.C. to help me get to NYC faster. I was totally thrown back by the offer. I told her I needed to think before I responded. I went and sat by myself in the backyard, deep with in my thoughts and emotion. On one hand the leg up to NYC is still a pretty good distance away, and taking the ride from Rae would not be a challenge at all (pride/ego). On the other I have so many ideas flowing and the sooner I get to New York the sooner I finish my book. The sooner I get the book published the sooner I can start effecting mass amounts of my human family. The sooner I can achieve that the sooner I can go on more adventures around the world, further inspiring myself and coming into contact with more amazing people. I had to remember who this journey was for in the first place, me. The fact is I have constantly challenged myself throughout this journey. It was not to prove anything to anyone else. It was to learn more about me and further journey to dig deeper into finding my life’s purpose. In thinking it would not be a challenge to take the ride I was thinking of everyone else besides myself. I have nothing to prove to anyone else. I know who I am and what I have accomplished through this journey.
I called up my brother Keith who I will be staying with in Manhattan while I stack money to get my own spot. I told him the date I would be in town and asked if that will be ok with him. He asked me to tell him my game plan, understandable. “I am stoked to be arriving on Friday in time to celebrate your birthday. Saturday I am going to buy a unlimited subway pass, and all weekend I am exploring and mapping out exactly where I will begin my hunt on Monday. By the end of the first week I will have at least one bartending gigg, possibly two. I am going to hustle my ass off and save every bit I make. When I am not working I will have my head buried in a laptop writing. When I am not writing I will be in the gym training. I am 100% focused and have never been so centered in my life. I will be a fly on the wall and trying to get out of your space as soon as possible.” Keith responds,”I can’t wait for you to get here. Don’t worry about a thing just handle your business. It will be great to have a true friend here in NYC.” Once I got that amazing blessing I exhaled and immediately felt over joyed and full of excitement for the upcoming adventure. I ran in and told Rae it is a go and that we are road tripping together! She smiled and it was officially set in stone. NYC is in my sights and I am ready!!!!
I spent the rest of the afternoon
replaying film my brain has recorded from the very start. It is incredible that even after all the substances i have passed through my brain, my memory is still crisp and clear. I thought about the fear I felt the night before my dad dropped me off on the side of the highway surround by snow covered mountains. I started to think of all of the lessons that this journey has taught me. I thought about each and every magical person I have met along the way. I remembered all of the adventures we shared together. I thought back to all the beautiful hugs given and received. I pulled out my phone an looked through the pictures and some of the videos i have collected. The beautiful sunsets and sunrises I experienced with not another soul around for miles. I have had countless moments of bliss and triumph. I have felt heart ache an the extreme lows that it brings. I remembered the beautiful ups and the nirvana of lessons learned from the lows. I have truly come to grips with my infinite potential and the out of this world joy that that brings to my soul. I know that everyday for the rest of my life I will wake up with the feeling of endless possibility, and I know what signs to be aware of if I stray from that gift. I now know how to immediately change the stray and get back in tune with what course I need to be on. I now KNOW WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL THE POWER THAT I AND EVERY SINGLE BEING HAS TO CREATE AND MANIFEST OUR DREAMS. I am now in the driver seat controlling my destiny! This journey is by up to date the greatest thing I have every done for myself, and the best part about that is… It is only the very tip of the iceberg!!!! Incredible!!!!!
After being with these thoughts I called my mother and relayed the news. When I first told her about this adventure she begged me not to do it. She told me that she had a bad feeling about it and that she didn’t know how she would handle it. My mother was born to be a mother. In my opinion she is the greatest mother to have ever walked this earth. She has told me all my life that I can do anything I set my mind to(i’m sure at times she has regretted that). She instilled infinite possibility into my brother and my life. She gave me my heart and taught me to LOVE everyone! That being said, she is extremely over protective and I knew this journey would be a hard pill to swallow. I promised her I would make it out alive. So, she had to be the first to know I had succeeded. I told her, “Mom! We have survived this together! I am safe and know exactly how and when I will be in NYC!” She replies, “Thank the lord! You have done it son!” She asked if I was truly ready for it to be over. “It’s never over mom, it just on to the next adventure.”
Jazzy J is a teacher at a charter school in D.C.. She has talked with the principle and set me up with the opportunity to make a bit of money to put groceries in Keith’s fridge and get my subway pass. I will be in D.C. for seven days an then I am hopping the chinatown bus into NYC!!!!!! I am beside myself an extremely excited for the beginning of my new adventure. I will be making at least one more blog post to close this out. Have no fear! I will be starting a new blog that chronicles my new city adventures, the people I meet, the joy’s of writing my first book an going about getting published. I am already beginning to create my pitch with in my head, basically letting all these big publishers know that it is a race between all of them to sign me, who is not going to be foolish and win that race… We will all have to wait and see!!!! “NO SLEEP TILL BROOKLYN!!!!” I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL OF MY HEART!!! THANK YOU, EACH AND EVERYONE WHO HAS TAKEN TIME FROM YOUR BUSY LIVES TO SHARE THIS JOURNEY WITH ME!!!! I FEEL SO HONORED AND BLESSED TO HAVE HAD ALL OF YOU RIGHT THERE WITH ME IN SPIRIT AND IN LOVE!!! WE ARE ALL THE CHANGE WE WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD!! WE JUST HAVE TO REALIZE IT AND ACT UPON THAT CHANGE WE DESIRE!!! WE ARE ALL KINGS AND QUEENS OF THE UNIVERSE AND NO ONE CAN TELL US HOW TO GO ABOUT THIS LIFE, NOT THE BULLSHIT GOVERNMENT, NOT YOUR PARENTS THOUGHTS ON WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING, NOT YOUR FRIENDS OPINIONS! YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE TO ANSWER TO SO GO OUT THERE AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!!! CREATE, MANIFEST, AND LIVE YOUR WILDEST DREAMS!!!!! LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


4 thoughts on “Light At The End Of The Tunnel

  1. I love this!!!! You make stepping outside of our own trap SO possible! You are an amazing man to be able to take on a challenge that many wouldn’t for fear of being judged or simply to scared to take a leap!! I am inspired by your love to teach others that EVERYONE is capable of this way of thinking. Loved your chat yesterday. xoxoxoxoxo

  2. Matt! I am so proud of you. Reading this has filled my heart with Joy. I love you bro!! You are an inspiration! Get out there and conquer NYC!! And you already know you have Maria and I backing you up 100%. LOL Much love!!!

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