A Poem About Poetry

Poetry defines my life’s flow, mostly down stream.

It is the way a surfer connects with mother ocean in fluid motion.

It is what I feel when I am cruising on a skateboard, music blasting in my ear, stylie.

It is a rhythmic power dictated, not in song, but in the voice of it’s possessor.

It is the the sexual energy between two lovers who need not use words because their eyes say it all.

Poetry is the expression of true emotion.

To me it is the taking of motion and making it concrete on flimsy paper with liquid ink.

Poetry is everything that we do added with the desire and longing for that which we have yet to do.

It is grasping tightly and letting go of everything all at once.

Poetry is words painting the infinite.

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Food For Thought Part Two

I continue to encounter people who are stressed out by the schematic of the North American society. People who believe that they have a certain standard to live up to. A standard for THEIR life that was set by someone else. In a capitalist society that breeds competition, it is a race to see who can achieve the degree, big house, and 2.5 kids. You are made to feel like less of a person if you are not involved in that race. I see so much discomfort and dissatisfaction with life in the people involved in this race(wether they are willing to admit it or not). Straight from High School you are supposed to go right into college. And when you get there you are supposed to know what you want to do with a large majority of your adult life. You are 18 years old! How could you possibly know what you want to do with your life when you know nothing about it. For a good majority of North American citizens they have never traveled outside of the country because either their parents do not have the finances or the time off of work. You are boxed in, knowing only one culture and one way of life.
The lack of honesty and communication between parent and child allows this cycle to continue. I have clearly seen in people that have a college education and a “great job”(great because of the monetary account, not because it is their passion) habitual unhappiness. Unhappiness because they never really took the time to discover themselves or their true passions in life. They banked on the falsity passed from generation to generation that the comforts of a large bank account will bring you happiness. It is a parents fear of survival that causes them to continue to pass down this bullshit schematic for life. It is a fear that if their child leaves to explore themselves and the world that they will lose track of the end all be all goal of the job that will bring them the large account, which will bring the home with lots of things to fill it with. When and where in all that, is happiness in the moment. If you are always focused on goals of the future where does that leave you now? If you are constantly focused on the large account and the home with lots of things in it where is the happiness NOW when you have nothing. When you are always focused on what you don’t have what room does that leave to be thankful for all that you currently do have? How many stories have you heard of generations prior becoming utterly depressed when they retire? Suddenly there is no job to occupy their time or their thoughts? What now? For the baby boomers and my parents generation, a majority of their life was defined by a job title or the company they work for. That is their identity and what defines them in society. When they are done with that job they did dutifully for 40 years of their life, how do they then define themselves? Who are they to become next? Retired? From this spawned the bullshit getting to know you question that EVERYONE asks when they first meet someone, ” So what do you do?” And the other person will rattle off some company or job title which supposedly provides status. Why does your job define you? Probably because that is all you do or all you know. High School, College, Job… Where does that leave time to create, manifest, an truly learn about yourself? This is not true of everyone and I am not knocking or promoting one or the other. I am a observer and student of the human experience. What I write is not fact, it is my opinion on what I see and how I feel. My hope and desire for you is to really think about that very common question you are repeatedly asked, “So what do you do?” Here is how I will now answer that question for the rest of my days, “I live life to the fullest! I strive to remain conscious as to not waste one moment of it in negativity. I am passionate about mother ocean and love to surf whenever I get the opportunity. I am a student of life forever starving for knowledge. I am a soul adventurer always searching. I love to go to the gym and train. I can’t wait for the next Rugby season so I can challenge myself mentally and physically. I love to travel and explore the entire world. I am a romantic man full of passion. I love meeting new people with new ideas. I love music in my headphones an even more so live. The list carries on infinitely because there are so many more experiences an ideas to be had. The most important of all is I LOVE!!!!! Thank you for reading this an taking time think, and soak in whatever you choose. I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL MY HEART!

Light At The End Of The Tunnel

My current adventure is coming to a close. I now know the exact date that I will be setting my first foot prints in NYC! It is bitter sweet, but I knew right from the start that it would at one point end. I will have been on the road living out of my rucksack for 107 days. When I started the journey back in January my dad asked me how long I thought it would take me. I gave him a estimate of three months, pretty close.
I have had a few in depth talks with my friend Rae, and during some of these talks I have expressed a desire for this current journey to end, get to NYC and get to work on finishing my book. I have one more stop to make before I get there. I have not seen my friend Jazzy J in a few years. She is a true friend and teacher who has helped me progress tremendously. She now lives in Washington D.C., it was set in stone as soon as I decided to make this journey. On Sunday, Rae threw it out that she would is ready for a road trip and would love to drive me to D.C. to help me get to NYC faster. I was totally thrown back by the offer. I told her I needed to think before I responded. I went and sat by myself in the backyard, deep with in my thoughts and emotion. On one hand the leg up to NYC is still a pretty good distance away, and taking the ride from Rae would not be a challenge at all (pride/ego). On the other I have so many ideas flowing and the sooner I get to New York the sooner I finish my book. The sooner I get the book published the sooner I can start effecting mass amounts of my human family. The sooner I can achieve that the sooner I can go on more adventures around the world, further inspiring myself and coming into contact with more amazing people. I had to remember who this journey was for in the first place, me. The fact is I have constantly challenged myself throughout this journey. It was not to prove anything to anyone else. It was to learn more about me and further journey to dig deeper into finding my life’s purpose. In thinking it would not be a challenge to take the ride I was thinking of everyone else besides myself. I have nothing to prove to anyone else. I know who I am and what I have accomplished through this journey.
I called up my brother Keith who I will be staying with in Manhattan while I stack money to get my own spot. I told him the date I would be in town and asked if that will be ok with him. He asked me to tell him my game plan, understandable. “I am stoked to be arriving on Friday in time to celebrate your birthday. Saturday I am going to buy a unlimited subway pass, and all weekend I am exploring and mapping out exactly where I will begin my hunt on Monday. By the end of the first week I will have at least one bartending gigg, possibly two. I am going to hustle my ass off and save every bit I make. When I am not working I will have my head buried in a laptop writing. When I am not writing I will be in the gym training. I am 100% focused and have never been so centered in my life. I will be a fly on the wall and trying to get out of your space as soon as possible.” Keith responds,”I can’t wait for you to get here. Don’t worry about a thing just handle your business. It will be great to have a true friend here in NYC.” Once I got that amazing blessing I exhaled and immediately felt over joyed and full of excitement for the upcoming adventure. I ran in and told Rae it is a go and that we are road tripping together! She smiled and it was officially set in stone. NYC is in my sights and I am ready!!!!
I spent the rest of the afternoon
replaying film my brain has recorded from the very start. It is incredible that even after all the substances i have passed through my brain, my memory is still crisp and clear. I thought about the fear I felt the night before my dad dropped me off on the side of the highway surround by snow covered mountains. I started to think of all of the lessons that this journey has taught me. I thought about each and every magical person I have met along the way. I remembered all of the adventures we shared together. I thought back to all the beautiful hugs given and received. I pulled out my phone an looked through the pictures and some of the videos i have collected. The beautiful sunsets and sunrises I experienced with not another soul around for miles. I have had countless moments of bliss and triumph. I have felt heart ache an the extreme lows that it brings. I remembered the beautiful ups and the nirvana of lessons learned from the lows. I have truly come to grips with my infinite potential and the out of this world joy that that brings to my soul. I know that everyday for the rest of my life I will wake up with the feeling of endless possibility, and I know what signs to be aware of if I stray from that gift. I now know how to immediately change the stray and get back in tune with what course I need to be on. I now KNOW WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL THE POWER THAT I AND EVERY SINGLE BEING HAS TO CREATE AND MANIFEST OUR DREAMS. I am now in the driver seat controlling my destiny! This journey is by up to date the greatest thing I have every done for myself, and the best part about that is… It is only the very tip of the iceberg!!!! Incredible!!!!!
After being with these thoughts I called my mother and relayed the news. When I first told her about this adventure she begged me not to do it. She told me that she had a bad feeling about it and that she didn’t know how she would handle it. My mother was born to be a mother. In my opinion she is the greatest mother to have ever walked this earth. She has told me all my life that I can do anything I set my mind to(i’m sure at times she has regretted that). She instilled infinite possibility into my brother and my life. She gave me my heart and taught me to LOVE everyone! That being said, she is extremely over protective and I knew this journey would be a hard pill to swallow. I promised her I would make it out alive. So, she had to be the first to know I had succeeded. I told her, “Mom! We have survived this together! I am safe and know exactly how and when I will be in NYC!” She replies, “Thank the lord! You have done it son!” She asked if I was truly ready for it to be over. “It’s never over mom, it just on to the next adventure.”
Jazzy J is a teacher at a charter school in D.C.. She has talked with the principle and set me up with the opportunity to make a bit of money to put groceries in Keith’s fridge and get my subway pass. I will be in D.C. for seven days an then I am hopping the chinatown bus into NYC!!!!!! I am beside myself an extremely excited for the beginning of my new adventure. I will be making at least one more blog post to close this out. Have no fear! I will be starting a new blog that chronicles my new city adventures, the people I meet, the joy’s of writing my first book an going about getting published. I am already beginning to create my pitch with in my head, basically letting all these big publishers know that it is a race between all of them to sign me, who is not going to be foolish and win that race… We will all have to wait and see!!!! “NO SLEEP TILL BROOKLYN!!!!” I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL OF MY HEART!!! THANK YOU, EACH AND EVERYONE WHO HAS TAKEN TIME FROM YOUR BUSY LIVES TO SHARE THIS JOURNEY WITH ME!!!! I FEEL SO HONORED AND BLESSED TO HAVE HAD ALL OF YOU RIGHT THERE WITH ME IN SPIRIT AND IN LOVE!!! WE ARE ALL THE CHANGE WE WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD!! WE JUST HAVE TO REALIZE IT AND ACT UPON THAT CHANGE WE DESIRE!!! WE ARE ALL KINGS AND QUEENS OF THE UNIVERSE AND NO ONE CAN TELL US HOW TO GO ABOUT THIS LIFE, NOT THE BULLSHIT GOVERNMENT, NOT YOUR PARENTS THOUGHTS ON WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING, NOT YOUR FRIENDS OPINIONS! YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE YOU HAVE TO ANSWER TO SO GO OUT THERE AND MAKE IT HAPPEN!!! CREATE, MANIFEST, AND LIVE YOUR WILDEST DREAMS!!!!! LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Effortless Attraction

Looking in her direction trying to coax a glance, but hoping for a deep incendiary stare.
Flowing across, dancing in front of her eyes…
With one soft finger motion the hair is swept, giving way to a playful smile.
To joyful, secure, and centered for frustration to interfere with this moment.
The wind gives just enough pressure to call for a lick. Bringing back a moist red forever drawing in the eye.
Not conscious of her effortless effect on the opposite.
Exuding her potency by the simple wafting of pheromones.
Drawing ever closer with out visions, keeping it all unknown.
She is now walking down the street, and away…
Savoring the intensity for a by chance encounter on another day…

Adventures in Miami

Apalachacola, Florida is roughly 500 miles from Miami. A few weeks earlier I sent out a Facebook message to a few close buddies telling them we should link up in Florida for spring break. A day later my friend Ian writes me back. He had already planned a trip to Miami for Ultra Music Festival. we ha talked about going to this festival a few years back when we shared a apartment. It was finally going down! Two things, A) MUST MAKE IT TO MIAMI!
B)HAVE NO TICKET FOR FESTIVAL! NO WORRIES!!
I had planned on leaving the woods giving my self 4 days to walk and hitch hike to Miami. My friend Ian bought me a expensive ticket for Fedde Le Grand’s set on the 21st(one of the kick off parties for UMF), so I had to make it. The day I was set to leave one of the people leading the camp asked to speak with me. Most of the people who said they would stay and help clean/naturalize the woods bailed out. He asked if I would stay and help. I told him about my dilemma as far a getting to Miami on time. He told me that if I stayed and helped him out, he would get me a greyhound ticket. I stayed an got things knocked out. The day before I need to be in Miami, dude is M.I.A! I started to get upset and freak out a bit. I made one quick call and it was sorted. My boy Keith came through and got me a ticket! I arrived in Miami the next day at noon.
I learned my lesson at the Gathering and I ventured into Miami with a open heart and no expectations. I was just excited to see my friend Ian, have a hot shower, and a roof over my head for a few days. I didn’t yet have a way into Ultra Music Festival, but something inside of me told me I would make my way in. I still had a few hours until Ian arrived from Switzerland, so I made my way to the bay and laid out in the warm sun. When I woke up I checked my email to get the address and time Ian would be in. I threw my pack on and started walking over the Venetian Causeway. It is a beautiful bridge going from downtown towards the ocean. As I am walking across I see Lamborghinis, Bentleys, and Porches. Down below on the crystal blue water I see Yachts with women sun bathing on the deck. I am walking through a freakin Notorious B.I.G music video, and here I come barefoot, filthy pants, and shirtless with a huge pack on my back. The timing was epic. Right as I came up to the address Ian and Hillary are pulling up in their rental car! Ian does not disappoint with his greeting. He has music blasting, hops out of the car bouncing around arms flailing, and gives me a huge hug.
We met up with the owner of the rental. It is better then any of us could have imagined. We walk through a long winding hallway and when we come out, beauty smacks us in the face. We are staying right on the water! All of the Yachts and speed boats I saw from a far are now floating right past our balcony. We are surrounded by swaying palm trees and before the bags are unpacked, loud music. Turns out that the guy renting us the place is a local news caster. Before he was about to leave I pitched him my story, ya never know right. He was blown away by a few of the stories I told him and couldn’t believe I was doing it with no cash. At the end of it he told me to email him links of my blog and youtube video. He informed me that he knows people in New York who do documentaries’ as well as non-scripted reality tv shows, and that if I didn’t mind he would pass it on to them. Cool with me! After we settled in we took of to get the house stocked for the next few days. Miami reminds me of a mix of downtown LA and San Diego, I would rather live in San Diego. When we got back the rest of the crew arrived from their flights. I was introduced to Christina, Sarah, and Jenna. All awesome down to earth ladies. While the girls started to get ready Ian and I started mixing up cocktails. 20 minutes before we are setting out for the Fedde show, Alex blast through the door! Alex is a one of a kind gentleman. He is a D.J in San Diego that I met an became friends with through Ian. Alex is a mad man who will have fun in any situation, especially this one. Between him and Ian they are a dynamic ball of unstoppable energy.
We all got back in around 6am and got a few hours sleep. I was woke up by blaring house music at 11am. Alex and I made some breakfast for the family and got prepared for the day. As everyone is lounging around three new friends roll up to the house River, Vanessa, and Stephen. All amazing people with positive energy and great outlook on life. Turns out that River an Stephen have recently started a digital magazine online. They were both there to interview artist/dj’s, as well as shoot video and pictures for their site. The first day the festival started at 5pm. When I got to the entrance way I split off from the group and told them if I didn’t get in I would just meet them back at the house. I made my way towards the entrance. There was mass amounts of people and I thought,’hey maybe I can just slide right by and no one will be the wiser.’ I almost made it and a big tough woman grabbed me at the last moment. I didn’t resist and just made my way back towards home. I didn’t really mind because I was still a bit beat and knew that there was a nice bed waiting for me. Plus Miami never sleeps and I knew I would be going to after parties when everyone got back.
The next day everyone woke up around 1pm and was moving slightly slower then the day before. As everyone is mapping out their set list for the day I am wondering how I can get in! After a few moments of contemplation River, Vanessa, and Carol walk up. River asks, ‘did you find a way in yet?’ Nope, not yet, but I will some how some way. He replies, ‘I got a press pass for you to use bro!’ I jumped up and gave him a giant bear hug! I tell everyone inside and the place erupts. We are all going to make it in and have a off the wall time with incredible dj’s. The press pass was slipped of someone with a small wrist. I tried to slip it on with soap and it wouldn’t slide over my palm. I couldn’t break it or it would be useless. Carol who I just met ten minutes prior steps up and says I will try it. It slipped right over her tiny hand. She says, ‘Cool! I will use this and you can take my ticket.’ She handed over her ticket and we all walked over to the Festival. I was electric walking in. I had so much energy and excitement. I knew eventually I would make it in, I just didn’t know it would feel this good. As we walk in Fatboy Slim was just starting his set. That day I got closer to new friends and heard great music. It was everything I could have hoped for times a million.
The weekend carried on and we all continued to enjoy each others company and have great adventures together. Tuesday was a sad day, everyone was saying good bye and going their separate ways. I had not thought about what I was going to do after. I threw on my pack and started walking. I ended up on Interstate 95. It was a high speed sketchy highway that was not going to be hospitable to me walking on it. I got back off and was not feeling good. The mix of the late afternoon heat and the previous weekends non-stop go caught up with me. I began to feel light headed and very weak. I decided to walk back towards the beach and rest up. I walked up to a grass area with some shade and laid down for a bit. I looked at my surroundings and 100 yards up the way I saw a bust that would shield me from the wind and anyone walking by. I decided that is where I would make camp for the night. It was actually quiet beautiful and peaceful. I was right on the bay on soft grass with the bush allowing me to tuck into it giving me overhead coverage and a feeling of safety because no one could sneak up from behind me. To be honest it was the first time I was nervous to camp out. It was a urban setting and I had seen quite a few homeless. To my surprise I fell asleep quickly and slept all the way through the night. I woke up to a homeless gentleman picking up cans next to me. I said hello and he kept moving along. Even though I slept well I was in a bit of a funk. I allowed worry and negativity to cloud my mind. I realized that I have a pretty good distance to cover to get to New York. I started to think that no one is going to pick me up and it is going to take me forever to get out of Miami. I am not super man by any means and this is the challenge I write about. It is a daily challenge for all of us to remain in a positive state. My journey has been amazing and very very blessed; but it is also easy to fall into a negative state. I can spend the day focusing on the fact that I have no money. I can focus on not knowing where I will sleep or where my next meal will come from. And thinking about those things will momentarily put me in a state of panic. I spoke with my mother and father this morning and told them what I was feeling. Just in the short while I spoke with them helped me snap out of it. I realized how much my parents love me and my job right now is to make them not worry and know that I will survive no matter what. I stopped myself and I told them, ‘I got this!’ I told them that it is all going to work out and there is still beautiful adventures to be had on my way to New York. I got off the phone with them stretched out and threw my pack on my back. I walked two or three miles down interstate 1 and saw a sign in the shade that said North 1. I figured that would be the best place to stick my thumb out. I just repeated over and over in my head, ‘ the right people will pick me up.’ 45 minutes later Jacky and Maria pull over. “Hop in man!” I threw my bag in the trunk and we were on our way. They asked where I was headed. I told them as far north as I can get. They are two angels in my life and everyone that they will encounter. We spent the next two hours at a man made canal filled with wild Manatee’s. It was so calming and unexpected. I forgot about having to be anywhere, because I didn’t have to be anywhere but there in that moment. Maria was born in Colombia and brought to America at the age of 8. She is a very deep woman with fantastic thoughts and ideas. Jacky’s parents are from Venezuela and she was born here. The talk we had this afternoon was a blessing to me and further got my mind and positivity back on track. I am so thankful for them! We had to drop Maria off at work and them Jacky was going to take me to get me further on my journey. Jacky took me to subway and we split a sandwich over great conversation. She had a few errands to run and then she told me she would take me somewhere. I had no idea where I just trusted her. I was exhausted for some reason and I fell asleep
In the passenger seat. After a bit I woke up and we were pulling up to a greyhound station. Jacky took out her last bit of money and asked the man behind the counter, “how far will this get my friend?” He replied, ‘up to Orlando.’ That is a huge distance covered for me! I gave her a giant hug and thanked her. She had a huge smile and thanked me for the blessings I brought to her. My whole day was flipped from a state of worry to positive again. I will forever be thankful for Jacky and Maria. This is a lesson to us all. If you want to worry and focus on all the negative then that is where you will remain. If it takes repeating a thousand times, ‘ I am so blessed and thankful to be alive. I have so
much to look forward to.’ Do it! Wake up tomorrow and before you move a muscle say thank you for this beautiful day! I AM ALIVE AND ENDLESS POSSIBILITY LIES BEFORE ME! I AM A GREAT BEING AND I AM BECOMING GREATER!! And then I want you to believe it whole heartedly and continue to become that greatness! I love you all with all my heart! Thank you for reading and thank you for being you! Positive thoughts and actions will lead us in the right direction!

Loving You

Today I was overcome with utter joy for life. My current surroundings, the giving and receiving of smiles/hugs, and sounds are magic fuel that ignite my soul. Taking time to stop and listen as the breeze flows through the trees from the north and sweeps beautiful sounds south. At night it is pitch black until the moon comes into view. And when it does, it lights up the white sand path I am traveling on. The trees reach to the sky trying to block it out; but ever now and again there is a clearing, and you can see endless brightly shining stars. Every camp has a fire raging and great great people laughing and talking. The fires are incredible spectacles to stare at and lose track of your thoughts…
Bear Necessities camp if fully set up! We have finished digging our giant fire pit, built our stove, and organized the over all operations. There are two kinds of people here at Rainbow Gathering. Those who are here by choice and those who see it as a easy option to get free food and take advantage. The positivity by far trumps the negative. I have taken a lead by example way of thinking. I am going to bust my ass, every task that needs a volunteer, I hop on it. We always need a ton of wood for the kitchen and evening fires. It is actually pretty therapeutic for me. I venture deep into the woods off the beaten path and search for old dry logs, and then try and find my way back. I make it a challenging game. Each time I will try and find a bigger log and then challenge myself not to stop or switch arms until I make it back to camp. I am trying to motivate people to help out and get involved in what this is truly meant to be about, family and love. It is based on the concept that you always want to do your best to help your family in any way you can. Everyone has their own skill set, and if they bring that to the table then we make shit happen . And then we all have time to hang out, relax with new friends, and make music. Tonight I am calling my first council with everyone at the camp. I want to speak to them and move their hearts in such away that we all come together to accomplish and enjoy. I am really excited about that.
Main circle has started and it is a magical place of energy and love. It is two mile walk on long winding paths deep into the woods. When you arrive, you walk into a HUGE clearing where we dug a 250′ in diameter (rough guesstimate) trench with a giant volcano looking mound in the middle to place the fire atop. A large portion of the people in the woods from various camps all migrate to main circle around sunset. When all of the kitchen camps have arrived everyone yells, “Circle up!” We all hold hands and do a mantra chant. It is so electric! You can feel so much energy surrounding us. Someone will usual speak and give a positive message, and then everyone sits in the circle and the kitchens go around feeding everyone; so beautiful and inspiring. Tonight is my biggest challenge yet as a cook. I am in charge of tonights main circle meal, representing Bear Necessities. I have never coked for more then 8 people before, I am stoked!!!! After everyone has finished there food, the drums kick in. I have been blessed to hear some insanely talented musicians. Everyone hangs out for a few hours making new friends and talking about whatever moves you at the moment. The emotion and connection I have experienced over the last few days is like nothing I have ever felt before. I take time to sit with myself just so I can be with my thoughts and fully acknowledge everything I am feeling and learning. My love for this life continues to grow exponentially. And countless blessings continue to flow my way. I highly recommend everyone attend and truly be a part of the Rainbow Gathering. They are held all over the world. I am going to make my way to every single countries Gathering throughout my life time. More follow within the next few days. I am heading to Miami to meet some friends I have not seen in a few years, going to be an amazing reunion. I am trying to get a ticket to Ultra Music Festival for the weekend of the 22nd. They are sold out, which doesn’t mean anything because I have nit cash to my name. Anyways, if anyone knows anyone who might be able to get me a ticket please let me know. I am willing to work for them. I have a large spectrum of skill set. I would be willing to volunteer helping out in anyway I can. Everyone, I encourage you to check me out on Face book. I post a lot of pictures there an it is a great way for us to connect and become involved. please pass on to your friends and family.Click the link and send me a friend request! http://m.facebook.com/login.php?refsrc=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2F&refid=8#!/matthew.hernandez.376043?__user=1278487002 world is my family and I love you all. Everyone desires love, understanding, and someone to make you feel special. I am that person and I want to spread that to as many people possible world wide. I love you all, thank you for taking time out of you day to read my thoughts and emotions. All together we are complete, food for thought! LOVE!

From Dreams Sprout Reality

I wanted to give a bit more insight as to who I am and what this trip and my writing means. Like I said in previous blogs I have been soul searching for a long time. I would say it started as early as 5th or 6th grade. I started asking myself and the universe what is my purpose here on earth. I always had a feeling that I was put here on earth to do something great that helps change the world for the better. I would rack my brain endlessly trying to figure it out questioning everything. Those who are close to me would tell you that i have always been a quiet fellow, and always observing. I would constantly tell myself, ‘you are only one small spec in the universe. How could I possible affect the world?’ I kept myself in this small state of being up until I took the leap of faith which is this trip. I am telling you all this because I get a lot of people telling me that I am inspiring them. I am so honored and thankful for those words. It has taken me a long time of procrastinating and talking a big game to get to the point I am at now, and I still have a long way to go. All that talking was me just being my own hype man. Hyping myself up both in my head and out loud knowing that if I ever mustered the courage and got off my ass I could accomplish anything. I have dreamed about this journey since childhood. I started being vocal about this trip and writing a book to all my friends when I got out of the Army in 2004. It took me 8 years an a lot of inward struggle to finally go for it. And even though I was not really writing a lot I would always tell people, ‘I am going to write a book that inspires change in peoples lives. That there is better way for us to live than what we are currently doing.’ All that time I already knew what my life’s purpose was. My fear was blinding me from seeing the vision. That was until…
A few days before the start of 2012 I had a dream. I still remember every vivid detail of this dream. I was in a laundry mat in a town I had never been in before with a woman I had never seen before. I threw in my clothes and walked outside and looked up… In the sky there was a huge battle going on. There were military jets and stealth bombers and ufos shooting and bombing the crap out of each other, and crashing to the ground. I ran back in and told the girl we gotta go! She ignored me and I called again. Still no response, so I took off running by myself. I ran into a local bank and had a seat in the corner. All around this bank are desks with one man behind them and a line of people in front of them. The building is shaking from all of the crashing and violent battle outside. I get up and walk around towards the back right as though there is something leading me there. When I get up to the man he says my name incorrectly. I correct him and he says, “I have been waiting for you.” He is in human form but I can see right through him and he has glowing green reptile like eyes. All of the sudden a screen pops up in mid air right before me. I don’t remember reading anything specific but I know it was a list of all of the things I have done in my life. Without any words being said I know that this being is letting me know we are being judged for what we do here on earth.
In a instant I am transported to the Middle East and I am in full combat gear and had the machine gun that I carried while in Iraq. I look up and I am surrounded by Middle Eastern men. They all have guns pointed at me. I get ready to pull my gun up and start engaging them all, and all of the sudden I throw my weapon down and start singing. In a blink of an eye I am in the back seat of a SUV racing through the desert with those same men. They are all grabbing at me and trying to hurt me. I am trying hard to fight them off with my fists. In another blink of an eye I am standing alone in the middle of the desert, and up on a hill I see a majestic looking tent. I walk in and there are two women laying on beautiful rugs and lush colorful pillows. I know right away that these women are my spirit guides. They teleport us to various scenarios and basically show me that I have two paths to choose from one will lead me to eternal misery and one will be my life’s truth. Without saying anything the lead me to answers I have been craving a good portion of my life.
I wake up from the dream feeling electric. My entire body feels like a bolt of lighting is surging through me and in that instant I know that my words both written and verbal are my life’s purpose, and that is how I change the world. Even after this dream slapped me in the face, it still took me a year to start to make it happen. I am telling you all this to further inspire you to follow your dreams and live your life’s TRUE PURPOSE, no matter how long it takes you. You already have the answers within you. You just have to be willing to see them. We all know that the world can be a much better place. A place where everyone loves and respects each other. We can achieve a world where there is NO ONE struggling to live. WE CAN LIVE IN A WORLD OF PEACE AND ABSOLUTELY NO WAR!!! We just need to learn to be understanding that we all have our own paths and no one path is better than the other. WE ARE ALL EQUAL!!!!! THERE IS NO ONE MAN OR WOMAN WHO IS ABOVE ANOTHER!!!! THERE IS NO ONE COUNTRY BETTER THAN ANOTHER!!!!! WE ARE ALL CITIZENS OF THE WORLD WE CAN LOVE AND WORK TOGETHER TO MAKE THESE CHANGES. I LOVE YOU ALL WITH ALL OF MY HEART!!!!